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Woke up this mornin' and...



Started thinkin’ really hard about this e-mail I want you to read. Wondering what I wanted to say as I pulled up my camo pants and put my feet in my combat boots. I thought about starting it with I love you…but it’s over said, I think, and it doesn’t give a concise meaning to what I feel in my soul. I can’t express it with words, and when I’m around you, I don’t want to smother you, so I jus try to contain it. I’ve found it extremely hard to be apart from you, so to “cope” with this feeling inert, I try to think of how you act when we’re together…try to show you that I’m strong enough to hang on for that time we’re apart. I realize that we sort of “switch roles” as you’ve said, you become high-maintenance. I’m apologizing now, for the hurt I’ve caused, for the feelings of “not being loved”, and for any neglect I’ve rendered. For all the being that is me, I didn’t want such things to happen.



What I want is to be able to hold you, to wake up in the morning feeling the warmth from your body right beside me. I want to hear your laugh again…and not jus over the phone, even though it’s been a while for that too. I want you to be proud of me as I am proud of you. I don’t know whether others have ever told you that….but I AM proud of you; the reasons left better for an actual conversation.



Most of all, I want to find my way back to you……